Pressing On

Do you ever let your past haunt you?

Does it take your joy?

Does it take your peace?

It’s so easy to look at our past and let it drag us down. I know personally, I can let my past eating habits or even how fit I used to be (a lifetime ago) sidetrack me from pressing on to be the fit person I know I need to be. It’s so easy to let it get in my head and manifest into this little evil monster that feeds my self doubt.

“Go ahead and eat that – everyone else can, why can’t you?”

“Why are you fighting so hard to lose two pounds when you know it’s not going to stay off.”

“You aren’t worthy.”

“You aren’t good enough.”

The same for my faith. Those things that happened to me in my past –those horrible things that left me crying in dark closets or hiding in my tree house can shake my faith. Why me? Why after all these years do I still struggle? What about how I teased people in school? I’m so ashamed of the person I used to be that it’s hard to become the person that God sees. I live in His Grace and am so very thankful for it, but it is still hard to see through His eyes, rather than my own shameful ones.

These are stumbling blocks every single day. Ones that I’m working on moving out of the path with my walk with God and my walk to a healthier me. I struggle. I fall. But I also press on.

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. (Phillippians 3:12-14)

And I have proof that pressing on, helps. I am closer to God now. I can forgive. I can lose weight. I can quit smoking (5 years come 8/15!). If God is for me, who can be against me? – Romans 8:31

Yup, I’m gonna keep pressing on with God right here beside me – cause we’re tight like that.

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Here are lyrics from Relient K (one of my FAVE bands) – titled aptly “Pressing On”.

I think we’re going somewhere.
We’re on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we’re going somewhere.
We’re on to something good here.
There’s only one thing left to do.
Drop all I have and go with you.

[Chorus:]
Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We’re going and I’m never knowing (never knowing) where we’re going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I’m pressing on.
Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won’t sit back, and take this anymore.
‘Cause I’m done with that, I’ve got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I’m pressing on.

I think we’re going somewhere.
We’re on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we’re going somewhere.
We’re on to something good here.
Adversity, we get around it.
Searched for joy, in you I found it.

You look down on me, but you don’t look down on me at all.
You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.
I think we’re going somewhere.
We’re on to something good here, and we’re gonna make it after all.

Gonna make it after all,

Kandra

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